Hello ladies....guys, you may want to skip out on this blog as it will talk about hormones, and hormones, oh....and hormones...you have been forewarned. *evil laugh*
Ok, now that I've gotten the disclaimer out of the way, I will proceed. The past couple of months have been very trying on my motivation. Over a year ago I took off on this journey, and in that time period, I've seen others lose, and lose, and lose, and reach goals, surpass goals, and lose some more....meanwhile, I'm stuck here at 29lbs lost. While to most that might seem like an accomplishment, however, given the amount of work I'm putting in, I'm definitely not getting the results a normal person would get. When I say normal, I mean someone without PCOS. What is PCOS? Great question! Other than being a beotch, it's one of the most common endocrine disorders in women. Women may experience a multitude of symptoms as a direct result of this disorder. Some symptoms include: infertility, cystic acne, excess hair growth on the face, menstrual irregularity (lack of menstruation, excessive menstruation) , obesity, depression, anxiety, type 2 diabetes, and the list goes on. Overall, it's an absolute pain in the rear to deal with. Not all women experience the same symptoms, but for me, I do have the following: insulin resistance, thinning hair, cystic acne, skin tags, migraines, anxiety, heart palpitations, obesity (obviously) , excessive cycle lengths (2 weeks out of a month, EVERY MONTH!), high cholesterol, high triglycerides, and I could go on...but I will spare you !
I guess I was diagnosed around the age of 17, and placed on birth control pills to help with my horrible monthly cycles. I remained on the pill for about 8 years, which is when I became pregnant with my first daughter. I was absolutely thrilled that I could even get pregnant, seeing as how I was told by multiple doctors that I would have to use fertility drugs to assist in pregnancy. Shortly after having her, I was diagnosed with insulin resistance. I had such an incredibly difficult time losing weight. I was put on Metformin (a drug to help your body regulate insulin levels, usually prescribed to type 2 diabetics). I've been taking the med every since then, continuing over the years to try to lose weight, fail , give up and start the vicious cycle again. I've not been on birth control since my second child, mainly due to the fear of blood clots. I'm already at a high risk with my obesity, as well as, family history of stroke, but I'm seriously considering going back to them. It will help 3 things for me, my acne, my cycles, and my excess heart palpitations from my hormone fluctuations. To put a visual on weight loss for someone with PCOS, it's like this: Imagine the steepest hill you can think of, now imagine you're climbing up that hill, with roller skates on, now make the hill a muddy hill.....it's pretty hard to climb up isn't it?
Am I frustrated? Oh hell yeah!!! I've worked much too hard, and have sacrificed too much to go back now. I'm in for the long haul, and while I may get repeatedly frustrated, I have to bounce back. It's a fight I'm much too stubborn to lose.