A common phrase I hear in relation to health journeys is "What's your Why?". I finally sat down to take a deeper dive into what exactly that phrase means to me. Two and a half years ago I started on a journey to bettering my physical and mental health. There was an obvious turning point that lead me to get super serious about the state I was in, but was that my why?
Over 2 years ago, my beautiful princesses gave me the weight loss wake up call I desperately needed. The weeks leading up to my wake up call, my oldest had been making comments about what things could help me lose weight, "Mommy, maybe if you do this" or "Mommy, I just want you to be healthy". She had mentioned something prior regarding me trying to go onto a TV show as well. While watching TV, an ad for Weight Watchers came on and my oldest looked at me and said "Mommy, I think that might work for you!" These were profound statements coming from a 6 year old. It wasn't until about a week later, my princesses were playing on the iPad and asking Siri questions, and the question that came out of my little princesses mouth hit me like a ton of bricks. "Siri, why is my mommy so fat?" to which my oldest adds "but she's such a nice , really really nice mommy" Ummm......can we say OUCH! I realized in that moment, while trying to be the best mom, wife, daughter, sister, friend etc that I can be, I forgot somewhere along the way to take care of me. I pride myself on how healthy my kids are, and I find myself always saying to others "If I ate the same way my kids do, I would be skinny!"
While these scenarios were hurtful, the thing that made them hurtful was that they were true. I decided at that moment to take charge of my life. It's been 2.5 years, and I'm still working on goals. What I've realized along the way is , there's no finish line. This is an ongoing process, this is a forever process. I'm working daily to continually battle issues that might side track me, but I'm also progressing. Even if it's sometimes 2 steps forward 5 steps back, the most important things is to keep going. Giving up is not an option, I'm on an adventure to become the best me I can be. So what is my why? I don't think anyone has just one why that gets them going, but rather, your WHY is a combination of tons of smaller whys. My wellbeing, my mental state, my physical comfort, my kids, my confidence are all just some of my whys to make up my WHY.
So tell me, what is your WHY?