Ok so it's been a couple of weeks since I've updated. Life as a busy mommy is, as always, eventful. I've been under some significant stress at work lately which has thoroughly, for lack of any better words, and to keep this a PG rated blog, has sucked. This past week was the first week since early July that I actually thought about wanting my old comfort foods....mainly pizza. I found myself mentally struggling with my stress and keeping myself from falling into bad habits. I had to take a step back and breathe. I was stressed about being stressed, and then I was stressed about the fact that I felt the carb cravings were taking over. I was feeling extremely stress-strated (stressed and frustrated) I'm happy to report, that even though I did eat two miniature sized Snickers ( I counted the calories) , I'm still on track and did NOT fall off the wagon. I've stayed within my calorie goals and I'm still keeping away from the breads, pasta, rice, potatoes and all my other vices. It was quite the challenge, but I'm so determined, I don't think anything will break me! I was hoping for some good news on my weigh in day, however...I haven't lost any weight in exactly 1 month. I'm fluctuating between the same two pounds up and down. In an effort to help quell my frustrations of the scale, I decided to take my measurements. While I may not have lost any weight in a month, and while I may be fluctuating up and down 1-2 lbs, I have successfully lost 8 inches since September 16th!!! (Can I get a whoop whoop?!?!?) On my waist alone, I have lost 6 inches!!! This definitely put a smile back on my face. All in all, since January 26th of this year, I have lost a total of *drumroll* 27 inches!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My waist is the smallest it has been in at least 8 years. I am taking this victory and running with it. I'm still keeping my goal of 16 lbs down by Thanksgiving. I will readjust at that time....if needed.
Another small victory happened this week as well. My BGP (big girl princess) can now successfully touch her hands together behind my back when giving me a hug! This is an awesome feeling because to see her face light up when she actually touched her fingers together was so much more motivation for me to keep going. This is something she's never been able to do in her lifetime, so she was pretty impressed herself. I think it was the first time she's truly realized that I'm getting healthier. Yesterday evening we were eating salad, and in the salad there were cherry tomatoes, soy beans, and blueberries (among other things) BGP picked up a cherry tomato and said, in her best voice impression of me, "Hi I'm mommy waaaay before I started to lose weight", then she put it down and proceeded to pick up a soy bean. Again, "Hi I'm mommy before I started to lose weight". She put that down, picked up a blueberry and said "Hi I'm mommy now, oooh look at me I'm so cute". I guess my boost in self confidence is evident to her as well. She gave us all a good laugh, but it made me super happy inside to know she's seeing the difference. She's seeing me make healthier choices, and she's seeing how much happier I am when making those choices. I finally feel like I'm being a great role model for her, in relation to leading a healthy life. We've come a long way now from asking Siri why their mom is so fat to noting how I've gone from a cherry tomato to a blueberry :)
Something I'm realizing on my journey thus far is, no two people's journeys are the same. Weight loss tools and techniques that have worked for others, don't work for all. The process is trial and error. It takes an EXTREME amount of patience within yourself, as well as within your support system. Having a support system is a necessity. Whether it be online, via chat, text, in person, family, friend, pet, stuffed animal, whatever, it's imperative that you surround yourself with those that are supportive of what you are doing. The best thing I could have done for myself thus far is, this blog. I'm holding myself accountable every step of the way, but at the same time, I have many eyes on me. All other weight loss attempts I have kept to myself or a small group of people, this time is different. I'm sharing it on the most public place there is.