Happy Saturday! The weekend is finally here! I've been under the weather battling a sinus infection and ear infection, which led me to a doctor visit yesterday. Ultimately, that visit led to my blog content for the day. Where I see myself less the 115lbs I want to lose. First of all, I dread doctors, as I'm sure most people do. I don't think I've met anyone super excited about having to go to one, however before yesterday, my main reason for dreading was the scale! It's like some ritualistic torture routine for them. You go in, you already don't feel well, and they are like...."please step on the scale".
My pre-doctor visit ritual starts at home. I wake up, make sure not to eat anything, drink anything, and I pick out the lightest clothes I own to wear. (usually a light t-shirt and capris or shorts). I make sure to go to the bathroom at least 20 times to ensure any and all excess fluid has been expelled, I find the easiest to remove shoes I own and slip them on. Then it's out the door, I arrive at the doctor's office, and have to visit the restroom....it's most important to to make sure that 21st bathroom visit gets rid of all the "water weight". Then I wait...and wait...and wait...usually this waiting leads to bathroom trip 22 just to be sure. Then I hear my name called and it's like time stands still, I make that dreaded walk to the scale. I remove my purse, earrings, glasses, fitbit, and shoes, roll my eyes, sigh, and step on. That magical number pops up and it's on to the room I go. The nurse proceeded to take my temperature, and pulse, and proceeds to the blood pressure. However, at this point she only has a standard cuff in the room. She said "I'll be right back", she steps out of the room, proceeds to the hall and I hear here telling another person, "this room doesn't have a large cuff". That's when I realized, the scale wasn't my only dreadful part of going to the doctors. Because I'm overweight, they aren't able to check my blood pressure with the regular cuff, and they need the large cuff to be able to fit around my arm. Embarrassment set in as I'm sure at this point my blood pressure is now through the roof. I never even considered that my weight would require a modification of having to use another type of cuff for blood pressure checking. Then we go through my current medications, and I'm at this point just begging for it all to be over with. Fast forward...while checking out of the office, I was handed my visit summary and sent on my merry way to the pharmacy. I sat in the car reading the paperwork, which listed my diagnoses....sinus infection, acute ear infection, and obesity. I flipped the page, which was an article on "healthy weight loss" I get to the pharmacy, fill the antibiotic, and have to ask the age old question of will it interact with all the other medications I take, and I proceed home. All these events led to me thinking about so many other things that I didn't realize before, which quickly turned into the things I look forward when I'm less 115lbs.
I long for the day when going to the doctors, is just a yearly exam for a check up. I currently have to go to a Cardiologist every 3-6 months, my yearly exam at the primary doctors, an Endocrinologist to manage my pre-diabetes every 3-6 months and so much more. I look forward to jumping on the scale and not having dreading the number that pops back on me. I look forward to using a standard cuff for my blood pressure, and not cringing at what my blood pressure reading would be, not having to give a long list of meds I take and just tell them "multivitamin". I look forward to getting my checkout paperwork and my diagnosis is "well checkup". I'm looking forward to having a clothes selection that is larger than a small corner in a department store. I look forward to paying less for the clothes I do buy since plus size clothing typically costs more due to more fabric being used. Oh and the extra added sequined parrots that all plus sized wearing women love to adorn......:P I look forward to bathing suit shopping that doesn't require me to have to find a suit that covers my rolls, and then looking for something else to cover the suit so the bathing suit doesn't show. I look forward to buying cute workout clothes and hopping on the treadmill and running a mile in under 15 minutes. I can't wait until I can go outside in the summer with shorts and a tank top and not feel like everything is jiggling out of the tank, and my things aren't clapping together as I walk. Oh and the chub rub that occurs in the summer...yeah that will be no more! I could go on for pages with what I look forward to, however,most of all, I'm looking forward to the boost in my self confidence, and my girls looking at their mommy and seeing the fruits of her hard work. Helping them to see that if they set their minds to something, they can accomplish it!
How about you? What do you look forward to? What goals do you want to accomplish and what do you see yourself doing once you do?